And you know what? It's the greatest thing that has happened to me in my lifetime. The Lord definitely knew what He was doing when He told Josh and I to have a baby quickly. And believe you me, I wasn't so happy about getting pregnant TWO MONTHS after getting married. But now I see why. I know this is my calling, to be a mother. And I'm so happy and humbled by that.
But let me tell you. Being a mom is HARD. It's the hardest thing I have ever done. One of the hardest things for me to get used to was the fact that I needed to live a completely selfless life, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Once I had a baby I realized that my life was basically not mine anymore. My life belongs to my child. I now live to care for my child. And me being the imperfect person I am, that gets frustrating.
But it's one step at a time. The good will always outweigh the bad. You learn and you grow, and then you'll grow some more.
I love this. :) Thanks for sharing your insight on being a mom! I feel like people only ever talk about how wonderful it is and the glow, and all the positives- which I'm sure those moments outweigh the hard moments- so it's nice when someone isn't afraid to be real. :) Heavenly Father's timing isn't always ours, but it's always the best!
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